12/11/19 Daily Tarot

12-11-19 Daily Tarot spreaddd :)

OSTARA TAROT DECK 

*** I only used Major Arcana for this one ***

Card 1: The mood and theme/message for today

THE WORLD - To me I just immediately got "the world is in your hands" or "the world is ever in your favor."
Spirituality, choice, fate (is up to you)
Aquarius, Scorpio, Taurus, and Leo showed up on the card.

• My Aquarius is in the 3rd house (communication) with Uranus and Neptune - basically I took this as if I actually work on my homework and final projects, I can actually get them done today.
• Scorpio is in my 12th house with Venus (11th/12th depending on if you look at traditional or whole). 12th is the house of the subconscious, dreams, a bit of karma, etc. So be ware of messages and symbols you recieve and what you listen to. Program your subconscious mind for success.
• Taurus in 6th house - health. Basically, eat healthier today lol. Work out. Take a walk through nature. Meditate.
• Leo in 9th house with Jupiter. Travel. Take a walk through nature lmao. Meditateee. 

GROUNDING.

Stay grounded bb <3 You got this. 

Reach that goal!

Endless opportunities

New planes to discover and explore!
Advancement in spirituality

lots of travel vibes - both on the physical and astral planes

infinite realities

travel

water

Card 2: The message for tonight, dreams/messages to look out for.

This card looks like a resemblence of twin flames. Or a connection on a soul level, maybe through the astral plane? It also kind of looks like a ritual is going on - it's intense but peaceful.

I wasn't really expecting to draw 2 cards lmaooo, this one just popped out at me so I decided to read into it.

I'm pretty sure I'm going to recieve some sort of important message through my dreams tonight or maybe one of my spirit guides will try to reach out to me. [Not that they haven't, I've just been going through a tough time spiritually and mentally.]

11/18/19 Tarot Spread; Spiritual Journey

Okay so I just intutively chose cards and sorta made my own tarot spread? This is mainly for me, but I'm posting it to my blog so I can go back to it whenever and not lose it even if I get a new phone or journal lol.

So the question was: How can [SPECIFIC PERSON] help me through my spiritual journey?
(I did this becuase I felt like we're going to go through some major shit together and that he's going to be a sort of spiritual guide for me - not a spirit guide! But just like a mentor or smth ya know? And I was just getting into tarot so I probably shouldn't have had a sneak peek at the future of my spiritual journey with this specific person bc it may be a bit intrusive but oh well. You live and you learn.

[THERE'S 12 CARDS TOTAL, MORE PICTURES AFTER THESE 9 LOL]

1-4 is general. It is the timeline, or progressed through time - 1 being first getting to know each other and 4 being close to the end or when we fully know each other very well.
5&6 is what his viewpoint is and how he will act during this whole spiritual journey.
7&8 is my viewpoint and mindset and how I will act.
9 is how we will act together/ how 5&6 connects to 7&8/ How will we clash? How will we harmonize?
10 is if or when things go wrong. 
11 is how we may try to fix it.
12 is the ultimate reward, at the very end of our journey, if we continue on the right path this is the reward.
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1 - KNIGHT OF WANDS; I already explained what this card means or represents in my journal but basically [NAME] is going to put me on the correct path to heighten my intuition and follow my true purpose for being here.

2 - 10 OF WANDS; Also already have this described in my journal but [NAME] basically will be very helpful and or healing towards me and my spiritual process/journery.

3 - QUEEN OF CUPS, reversed; Honestly, if you look at this card from far away, it looks like that skull devil goat head lmao yeet and in the center from far away it looks like one arm catching another from falling. So when things go to shit (spiritually) he'll be there to help.
Shit. Damn. Okay so I definetly fucked something up, maybe messed with a demon or opened a portal or got stuck in the astral plane/dimension. (You can see more about it in CARD 4 which is how we resolve it).

4 - PAGE OF SWORDS; Okay so I'm taking it as 1 and 2 are the good times and 3 and 4 are when things get not so good.
4 is kind of making me connect it to 3 because it looks like the person is ready to fight.
The woman with the sword ready to fight represents me during the difficult times of my spiritual journey and the hare/animal represents [NAME]. It shows us in the spiritual realm or astral relam possibly and you can see a little fear in the woman's eyes but there's definetly a lot of determination overpowering that. But the hare thing looks like he's about to tackle the antagonsit before I do lol.
So basically, he'll lead me through/around the spiritual/astral plane or whatever deep-shit-journey I'm going through at the time when the time comes for it.
I'm pretty sure this is to tie up loose ends that CARD 3 brought. I fucked something up during that time.
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[5&6 is what his viewpoint is and how he will act during this whole spiritual journey.]

5 - THE HANGED MAN, reversed; Honestly, he looks like he's about to just yeet it back into the astral dimension where he's more comfortable, or to retreat away from his problems lmao. Notice how he's looking to the carvings in the tree. I think this is what ties him to the physical world. OH OR HE'S IN THE astral dimension but the carvings reminds him to stay grounded and why he needs to be in the physical world/dimension and so he smiles and is stepping back through the portal to the living.

6 - 5 OF COINS; Okay so I'm getting major Adam and Eve vibes here. There's something very intruiging tree and the snake is leaning towards the apple on a stand. There's also the girl that the snake is leading who has a guilty face but is leaning or walking towards it anyways (the girl, not the snake). TEMPTATION. [NAME] has temptation or some sort of pleasure reward for retreating back into the astral plane. Maybe the spirits are so tied to him that he just gets pulled along and he can't really control it. The spirits are just always with him, always having something to say.
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[7&8 is my viewpoint and mindset and how I will act.]

7 - PAGE OF CUPS; I have this in my journal already BUT BASICALLY my inner child and creativity and curiosity will shine and I will explore the spiritual realm and basically all things mystical/esoteric with utter awe and excitement. [She reminds me of a Sagittarius :)] I will stay optimistic and light-hearted in a child-like/youthful way.
However, this undeniable curiousity combined with my inexperience will most likely lead to some troubling situations.

8 - HERMIT; Sometimes, however, I will want to wander off by myself, alone, idependently. I will want to explore the spiritual realm and divinity on my own. Sometimes I should do this, but for the majority of the time during astral travel and spiritual things like that- that could put me in serious danger if not educated- I should really learn to follow [NAME] or at least follow his guidance since he is VERY experienced.

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[9 is how we will act together/ how 5&6 connects to 7&8/ How will we clash? How will we harmonize?]

9 - 3 OF CUPS; Honestly, this is so fucking beautiful. Funny though since I'm afraid of frogs. Honestly, this card makes it look like our spiritual journey together is going to be a bit everywhere, a bit of a mess, but not in a bad way !!  Of course, there will be some not-so-good times but there will also be plenty of fortune as well. In this card, I think I represent the girl and he represents the eye in the cup and the dozens of frogs everywhere. I look sad too because I might not like some of the criticsm he'll give me but I msut remember to trust him and that he has good intentions and good guidance. Trusting him and his guidance will lead to good fortune and spiritual acension. The girl in this card is sipping from a cup wihtout the third eye in it. Eventually, I will drink from the one with the third eye in it - representing wisdom and empowerment. Patience is key. Trust what [NAME] is saying and reward will come.

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Alrightyyyyy

[10a is 10 and 10b is 11 lol]

Cards 10 and 11 are going to be a major event that will happen during our time of knowing each other. I'm sort of conencting these cards' time frame during cards 3 and 4. Card 10 during 3 and  11 during 4.

10 - THE DEVIL; Yeet. Okay so obviously I may run into some dark shit, but it will be a learning expereince and it will be transforming. We kind of look like we are both trapped inside the cage that the devil is holding, with our backs together kind of like how someone who was kidnapped would be. Yeahhh, I kind of have a feeling that this one's going to be my fault - probably from getting too excited about the dead or the spiritual realm or magick or something of that matter but it's going to be like really bad and when he comes to try and help me, he gets trapped too. 

Whelp. I really have to start trusting his (and the spirits he communicates with) guidance. 

I also have this card written in my journal.

11 - 2 OF SWORDS, reversed; Okay so the two swords are for both of us to fight with. It's like we are going to reach up from underground, maybe the "underworld" and grab the swords and that'll carbe us a path out and to safety, for now, at least safety from that situation. 

[This one wasn't really clear for me at the time of this reading.] 

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[12 is the ultimate reward, at the very end of our journey, if we continue on the right path this is the reward.]

CARD 12 - THE HIEROPRANT; Spiritual enlightenment! Ascension! Spiritual awakening for both of us! 

It looks like the path to "heaven" tbh - or to "hell," whichever decisions we make will determine that.

v good fortunes

v spiritually/soulfully in tune or aligned with the Universe.

12-5-19 Tarot Spread

12-5-19
THIS SPREAD IS NOT MINE

1. EARTH - What do you need to do to ground yourself, feel rooted and secure?
2. SPIRIT - How you currently are or are not nourishing your spiritual self.
3. FIRE - Goals, dreams, or ambitions you need to foster or follow.
4. AIR - Your current outlook and thoughts or what you should focus on.
5. WATER - How you give or recieve love and how to heal your heart.

[THE FOLLOWING IS WHAT I PULLED FOR MYSELF. I'm just keeping it on my blog for a reminder for myself :)]

I used the Ostara Tarot deck

1 - 3 of Swords [ pulled 2 for clarification], Temperance reversed
          3 of Swords; This card shows me keeping a close circle of friends or trusted ones. However, the 3 Swords (knives) are stabbing the heart so it may mean that to ground myself, I should be more social and not isolate myself. (Very true lmao, whenever I'm by myself I daydream the day away and never stay grounded or get anything done. lmao thank you Uranus and Neptune in Aquarius 3rd house, Pisces 4th/IC).
Betrayal, Heartbreak, Grief, Hard Lessons
Okay so basically I need to fail first in order to succeed. Make mroe friendships, relationships, travel, etc. - it all leads to growth.

          Temperance, reversed; To me, this card completely symbolizes an empath who is communicating with animals and nature. The elements Earth and Water is seen which reminds me in order to stay rooted/grounded, I should embrace my empathic abilities and not supress them and be near or with nature and animals and water.
Balance, Equilibrium, Wisdom, Peace
"Perhaps it is time to consider the distribution of your energies to ensure they are organized where they are most needed." Yeah, I definetly need to work on that.

2 - Queen of Swords
          Queen of Swords; LOL yeahhh,,, This card is an obvious representation of the Third Eye chakra and clairvoyance as the Queen is holding up an eye with beaming light out of it and the main colour theme for this card is Violet. I have indeed been doing dream work, astral travel, exploring my my subconscious, divination, etc. I'm basically just living like I'm the planet Neptune. (I've been living in my subconscious though so I also need to work on grounding myself.)
Intelligence, Inward Focus, Honesty, Maturity
Basically she sees through her third eye and intuition, but she does not allow emotions to cloud her judgement. She can see through all lies and illusions through her intuition, and seeks truth.

3 - [I pulled 2 for clarification] 4 of Cups, 6 of Cups
          4 of Cups; Tbh, in this card she looks like connected to the bunny on a soul level so much to the point that she's ignoring other's offerings? So to me this represents how much I'm working on my inner work and psychic abilities that I'm ignoring everyone else. :( Which is true
Apathy, Gratitude, Openness, New Experiences
"Avoid self-pity and closing yourself off from the world. New experiences or people may help to draw you out of your consuming thoughts. Open yourself to opportunity."
OKAY SO I really need to work on grounding myself, like a lot of this reading is telling me to ground myself, and actually go out to explore new experiences in order to grow and follow my dreams. Basically, 'stop isolating yourself and daydreaming!!!'

          6 of Cups, reversed; To me, this looks like a ritual with a soul family of sorts or maybe a coven. Everyone has their own gifts/offerings and all of them together creates this beautiful force of Light and power.
The Past, Reflection, Inner Child, Fresh Perspective
"Your innocence and wonder are powerful tools that can help through any difficult times."
Reversed- Basically, I am "dealing with painful memories, or a lack of fulfilled expectations..." and I need to step outside myself and move on. Yeahhh... I'm currently going through a Dark Night of the soul and I wasn't expecting it AT ALL. I thought I would just be in that bliss state after the awakening forever.

4 - King of Coins, reversed
          oooo shinyyy, he looks like wither a collector or gold digger LOL. I got some sun/moon yin/yang vibes goin on here.
Riches, Avarice, Ultimate Price, Overprotection
Basically, I need to slow down and protect myself and my abilities.
"...others will step in under the pretense of friendship, but only to grab a piece of your fortune." So, this either refers to my current thoughts or outlook, or what I should focus on. I would say all of the above lolll, be aware that people can use you for your abilities but also be aware of any intrusive thinking about others.
"Be wary of the inevitable cost for the measures needed to acquire and defend such riches."
Funny, becuase I recently had a background/intrusive thought of trying to kill myself again - or to the near-death state - in order to go through another spiritual awakening and get out of this damn Dark Night of the Soul.
This is confirmation to NOT do that lolll. Thank you spirittttt, love youuu <3

5 - [pulled 2 for clarification] 9 of Cups and The Emporer, reversed
          9 of Cups; Homeee. This card reminds me of home, security, and loyalty, warmth, etc.
How I give or recieve love is by offering others love and loyalty and I get the same or close to in return.
Accomplishment, Pride, Indulgence, Rest, Trust
To heal my heart... "it is time to treat yourself and indulge in a high-ticket item you have been pining after. Or, perhaps allow yourself to relax, spend the day in bed, slow down, and be happy with all you have accomplished."
Basically, I've been through a lot of shit this past year and need to calm tf down.

          The Emperor, reversed; Damn, he looks amazing. He looks very wise and strong, philisophical knowledge, etc.
Masculinity, Stability, Fearlessness, Passion
Now, reversed would mean that I may not be "providing the stability that [my] loved ones sorely need." But I feel that this card is only reversed in certain situations or times in my life currently. But I can see the reversed aspects of this card, I really need to work on gorunding myself and being more social again. Upright, I provide strength, stability and trust for others and to heal my heart I should do the same for myself.

12-2-19; Psychic Abilities Tarot Reading

12-2-19

Owls Tarot - Psychic Abilities tarot reading

Okay so I'm posting my responses here on my blog so I can easily look back like a timeline and see my progress and just how I resonated.

#2 and 4, completely resonated
I'm an empath hedge witch, have been an empath all my life - both physical and emotional, to nature, people, animals, and spirits
I'm working on my masters in psychology but I really want to incorporate my spiritual and psychic practices into it <3
I also have moon and pluto in Sag in the 1st house, Virgo MC/Pisces IC, Cancer vertex in 8th, Scorpio Venus in the 12th
I am a natural healer and extremely effected by the energies of nature and the moon
Whenever I go in nature, it's like my mind compeltely clears and I get into a meditative zen state and I just feel so at peace I love it


Also with the hedge witch side of things, I'm working with herbalism and teaching others about spirituality and the universe and I also communicate A LOT through my subconscious and dreams when I communicate with spirits and spirit guides


OKAY so for #4 -
I always attract the people who are in need of guidance or people who are "damaged."  They say that my prescence feels very trusting and calm and loving
I'm absolutely an introvert, like major introvert lol there's way too much energy and I like to be alone when I learn
Knowledgeee, yes - I have Juupiter Leo and Virgo Mars in the 9th house lolll and Uranus and Neptune Aquarius in the 3rd house
(Libra Mercury in the 11th)
I keep seeing my dead great great grandmother in my parents room?
I also feel VERY protected by my spirit guides and angels

The Testing Game

The Testing Game

So this is a game to see how effected you are by spirits... apparently I'm very and attract bad ones too lmao yeet

So I did this once before when I was really young - like yearsss ago - and I saw a shadow figure thing in the garage? I think? Anywyas so I decided to play it again recently like 11-30-19.

So for this time:
I was outside my front door to the house and walked around a bit so I could see if there was anything in my backyard woods or not - I mean besides some eyes there weren't. Anyways so I explore my house, everything is pretty much the same but it kind of looks abandoned. The atmosphere was cold and dark and all of the lights were off and no one was home as far as I could tell at that point. I forgot to check upstairs, but I checked my brothers room and no one was there, but then I went into my parents room and literally my dead great great grandmother was just standing there by the bed. I felt like she had somethign to tell me. Anyways, moving on.
I made my way to my room and oh boy. I saw a couple children spirits but one particularly stood out as the rest disappeared. There was this (6 year old?) boy with wavy dirty blonde hair who was trying to pull me into this firey portal in the floor and was saying like "Let's play!" and "play with meee" while grabbing my arms and pulling. But I didn't feel scared or anything, it kind of felt like motherly love and I just wanted to give him a hug.

There was also somethign sitting on my bed, I think it was the shadow figure again. He was jus chillin though, just watching us.

Anyways so apparently if you see no one, you are not effected by spirits at all.
If you see family, you are somewhat effected.
If you see dead people or anyone you know that is dead, you are very effected by spirits.
and If you see spirits or shadow figures or anything not human, you are extremely effected by spirits but you should be careful because the bad ones are usually attracted to you.

Fun stuffff

Doors to Your Mind Ritual [PART 2]

11-28-19

Doors to Your Mind [PART 2]

Alrighty so I did the ritual again. This time was very weird and I could barely remember it? I got trapped in a different corridor than the first one and it was like a hotel corridor/hallway with dark brown wood and it kept going on and on (it was a curved path too) but at some point I became very tony, like alice in wonderland tiny. Anyways when I turned around to look for a door, tons of thosee tiny red, caved in doors started appearing everywhere (in place of where the hotel rooms would be). Apparently any red doors you see represent your worst fears?
I've thought of this quite a bit and come to the conclusion that my worst fears are never being able to contact my spirit guides again, losing touch with the spirit dimension, and not being able to advance my psychic abilities, and being stuck in one place forever.

Doors of Your Mind Ritual [PART 1]

11-27-19
Okay so I did the Doors to Your Mind ritual thing and mine were fuckin wild.
This first video is the first time I did it and when I went through the door that led into the forest, I think I was in the spiritual/astral dimension? It's exactly the same forest and atmosohere as where I met my spirit guide for the first time. This time I saw someone swimming in the river though. She was naked and had long black hair (that was wet obviously). Should I try to contact her again?